I wanted to write this blog because it's something that is always on my mind, but even more so now. Just recently, my parents flew out from Canada to visit my husband and I for a month. And they stayed with us the entire time. Now to say this was easy, would be.........well...... a LIE!!!! So I won't do that to you! But I will say, that even though we had our moments, it was such a special time for us. We kept them very busy and my personal goal was to make sure they didn't have to lift a finger while they were staying with us. Mission accomplished!
It was a real personal test for me while they were staying with us. It was great to take that opportunity to keep my eyes open to the real person that " I Am". And to allow myself the process of being my true authentic self. For years, I have struggled with feeling guilty for so many things. And through this journey with my husband, I realized that I need to work through that and find my truth in the reasons why.
I think we sometimes allow ourselves to hold back who we really are, for fear that we may disappoint. Or for me, I attached a sort of guilt for having my own thoughts and or feelings towards things, because it would then be "so unlike me". When in reality it wasn't "unlike me" at all! In fact, it was quite the contrary. My nearest and dearest best friends will tell you that I have ALWAYS been a straight up type of gal. Someone who, "says it like it is", and I won't apologize for that, because I have nothing to prove. And now, I can say, that even though that feeling of guilt is still there, I don't surrender to it. Why?... because I'm just ME. And I'm more than ok with that.
A big part of my husband learning how to deal with his struggle with depression, is to take a really good look in the mirror. Even when there are times he would rather smash that mirror and take the bad luck that goes with it. But in saying that, having this proverbial mirror to his face, he has really taken the initiative to search out the answers that have been his blocking factor for so many years. And in doing so, this has allowed him to better take a realistic look at the how's and why's of his illness.
I know dear and close friends that struggle with this illness and have a very hard time opening up. It is a worry to me, that they don't feel that they are important enough to put in the hard yards and efforts, that are needed to try and find a "solution of sorts". We are ALL WORTHY of being given the time and the listening ear, to better help understand one another and correct the lines of communication that may or may not have been broken. This all just helps us to be better, feel better and grow in such amazing ways as humans and individuals.
As we grow within ourselves, through the years we slowly alter who we are becoming as a person. So living your own life the way you want to live it, being your own truth the way you believe it, and making your own choices that give YOUR best results, is what truly matters most. It matters because you are being honest with who YOU are, or are becoming. The genuine you, the real you, is what attracts everyone and everything else that will follow in what can be, your fabulous life!
Just Be You!